Closure [3126]

Thank you for being a part of my life, Edge.

Today, I was able to talk to my boyfriend after 2 months without contact. We talked in person about our relationship and finally got a closure with him. Breakups aren't always terrible, but a part of life and experience.

Honestly, whenever I thought about breakups, I assume they'll turn into a bad fight, but in my experience, I found out that it's actually different. It's not dramatic like in reality shows because I put my emotions aside and listen to reasons.

When I finally arrive at his place, we have a private conversation as he answers to the reasons why he stopped contacting me. After hearing his story, I may not feel the same, but I understand his reasons and struggle. I also forgive him for the wrongs when he admits regretting of his actions as we came to a conclusion.

We have a mutual agreement and part ways so we can focus on ourselves by find a balancing lifestyle before either one of us gets back into a relationship. I agreed to it as I have my own problems I need to overcome first.

In the end, we respect each other's decisions, whatever we happen to get back together after a few months or if I ended up with a new partner in life. There aren't any more ties for us to hold back as we're able to move forward to our own paths. After that, it was the moment I feel so light and free.

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Not all breakups are easy, but I was able to handle mine very well because it's not about finding answers then leaving it sour. Whatever it's heartbreaking or upsetting, at the end of a story comes a new beginning, a new chapter, book or series of your life.

My memories with him are still special in my heart, even if it's not there. There are no strings attached but an invisible memory lane to recall the good and fun times we had together. We had our ups and downs but I can agree that our moments together weren't a waste of time ever since I tend to worry about time.

I probably mentioned this before, but I see myself as both Sci and Edge personality-wise. Sci would be my logical side while Edge as emotional.

My relationship with my ex-boyfriend gave me many inspirations of Sci and Edge together. I'm usually Edge in the relationship, but it was obvious I pick Sci over Edge in this illustration to represent how I felt when receiving closure from my ex-boyfriend.

I also place this as a part in the scifell tag because there's a secret message I added in, as well as the coloured book is red, relating to Edge.

I used the same background design of adding white thin stripes from my previous illustration. The colour choices were going to be the same as before, but I modify the values until I find a perfect colour palette. I love the tint of pink and purple added with the lighter warm colours, fitting the atmosphere to how I feel about the closure despite an invisible hint of bittersweet tears.

Overall, I had problems struggling to make backgrounds, but the final results end up like how I first envisioned it to be. Lastly, I added pentagon light particles around the background wall as experimentation as I often see some from Eastern comic books in romantic genres.

Updated: 2024-04-04

Besides minor editing, I'm sharing the disclaimer about the ex-boyfriend I'm referring in this post is about my first ex, not to be confused with the two exes I've dated.

Also, I noticed and don't like how I drew Sci's hand on top of the book because I drew his fingers long and out of scale when using my own hand as reference.

Lastly, I don't appreciate this illustration being used without my consent or for other ships besides scifell due to my personal reasons and story behind it.

Thanks for reading, understanding and respecting my works!

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