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Still inseparable after two lucks... Like Day 29, I'm fuckin' pissed how this turns out. Don't get me wrong, I have a pretty amazing day (yesterday) in the city for the first time this year. Over there, I found tons of capsule prize machines (tried one out and got a small penguin figure, it's okay but not worth the money). Also, it's not often you get what you wanted in those gacha machines but if you get the two you really wanted, you would feel rather lucky about it. Also, I find it funny imagining Gaster has all his captured "sons" inside each capsule- wait, that's pretty dark (even with the air holes to breathe)...

Fuck it, screw this world... This is the first time I didn't draw daily traditional in time because I end up drawing something else in digital. Now, I'm drawing three in one day just to catch up with today. I'm incredibly frustrated that I didn't end up using two pages in one and make a board game or grid (you might able to notice the dotted lines around the border) and rather be honest: Fuck this shit. I'm done, tired and unhappy because I didn't draw on that day or even yesterday too. Since I didn't have anything to remember, I just drew them done with this in an empty space.

I have to become a kind person before my heart grows numb!

I just can't stop talking about Sci..! The word "awesome" along with many words like "amazing" and "best" means the same thing in Japanese (最高/SCI-kou). Also, I can't sleep all the sudden, feeling anxious for tomorrow... Anyway, besides forgetting Australia Day (and that I don't really celebrate it), I end up writing a lot of description and my own blog page about Sci (UnderDespair/my version) as a substitute to an actual fandom wiki. Also, I don't like people edit and steal my interception of Sci and Edge cause they have become personal to me...

How's the current me? You can't help it! This drawing didn't turn out well as I expected (especially their arms and position space is limited) and it's my first to draw very late around 5 AM. I was digging my old flies to find any of my videos and animations for a possible interview in one of the courses I might want to study this year. When I was looking at my stuff, I missed those years with certain friends but the good days turned bitter and the song "How To World Domination" reminded me of who I am now. I'm glad I'm still somewhat nice and a kind person to this day.

What's-s... g0InG On..? Recently, my right hand's fingertips felt numb and tinkling all the sudden and I don't know what's wrong with me. Not before making draft sketches of character sprites, my laptop hit a glitch and forced to shut down. Later, my fingers are back to normal. I feel like I glitched out or something like that... Because of the strange circumstances, I and decided to draw Sci and Edge glitching together as if my body and mind wanting separate things... Also, drawing this has a few mistakes but I let it slide since it meant to be an error and glitchy.

Happy Chinese New Year! This is the first time drawing Gaster for the "Daily Scifell". Usually, I see him as a joke and mascot, especially a gag with Sci as his "father-figure". Originally, I was going to draw Sci and Edge eating a half-moon steam dumpling each while having a new moon in the background. However, I didn't take photo references nor do I know the actual translated name of the traditional food that I used to make with my family together in Chinese. When I got two red packets from my family, I remembered that I could continue receiving the money inside as long as I'm not married.

Sketch version of their pixel sprite. I finally got myself working on drawing a few ideas and sprites for my AU. It's not just the full-body sprites, this is the first time I made an 8-Bit pixel art (using the crossover's original as the base). I tried making the pixel art in digital before using one of my sister's math's grid textbook as a guide. Even tracing on paper, I made a few mistakes in the traditional drawing. There's an extra pixel near Edge's pants and even forgetting to shade certain squares like Edge's zippers and the drawstrings. Also, I'll post the digital pixel version after this.

Sci appeared! What should Edge do? The drawing didn't turn out how I envisioned, especially the background is rushed. Since yesterday, the weather is extremely hot that my internet refuses to connect the whole day. It was the day I went out at the boiling heat just to buy myself a super large coke slushie. Outside, I met somebody familiar on my way and have a small chat before we part ways. We never have each other's contact but for certain, we live around the same area. Ever since they met me and my dog, we encounter each other many times throughout the years.

Hey, not too close to the fan... I wasn't sure to add lines of the breeze and Edge's body should be placed a little lower, aligning with the fan. Also, I don't have an air conditioner but I added it so the background wouldn't be empty. Today, I haven't done anything other than sleeping most of the day, twice. One in the morning on the sofa downstairs and the rest until late afternoon on my bed. Even though I haven't head outside, I'm glad I stayed inside and use an electronic fan. After dinner, I feel much cooler. Besides the smell of bug spray downstairs, the night turns cold and I get to continue writing in my room.

Sorry Edge, I'm busy working on this... Today isn't an interesting day. Since yesterday, I've been writing, correcting, editing and continuing the story of UnderDespair. I couldn't focus working on the writing because recently, the weather is really hot and having technology near me makes it difficult to finish. I know, I could be talking to my friends online or do something else to relax but I've been holding the project too long that I decided to finish where I started while knowing everyone would hopefully understand why I'm not available all the time.

*sigh* Seriously, no more drinks... I'm furious at the shading mistake on Edge's face but other than that, I could have done this better... Ever since I haven't drunk any coke slushies, I begin drinking them again... Not one, not two, but three (breakfast, lunch and dinner). It's the first time this year I woke up pretty early, which is why I celebrate myself with one. After a trip to my old college, I had my third drink and that night, I feel like being intoxicated from it. Bonus, I asked my advisor to guess their gender and I'm happy hearing he doesn't know (neither).

Hope you're doing well in your world! It should be called "Letter Message" but I messed it up writing "Message" first. Also, I ran out of ink inside my favourite syringe pens and ruined the sky, so I added a tree to cover the mistake. It's been a while that I send my reply to Glitch . Our replies are pretty long like an actual letter mail. It's nice internet can send messages quickly but it loses its charm from writing a handwritten letter. By the way, his 2nd package for me hasn't arrived since November and I'm still waiting for it... Despite that, I'm glad to know Glitch is doing alright himself while I was away.

Well... This is a thing? Lately, my anti-depression tablets aren't working like it used to and I still couldn't sleep well. I end up browsing on my phone the whole night and stumbled upon Hazbin Hotel again. Later, I end up trying to find content of Husk (my favourite character) and Baxter until I was surprised to find a fanart of them together drawn by kyogre1523 on Instagram in the morning. Ky and cuddlypfudor got me "catfish" into crack shipping those two. It's mainly because Edge is totally like Husk while Baxter is so far, the only scientist-like character in the series.

A friendly chat until the rain stops... I got myself distracted and couldn't come up with a better title. Also, I noticed my sketches are getting worse mainly because I'm not relying on drawing in digital before traditional just to save some time. When I walked my dog, it was sprinkling, the kind of light shower I like to go out without an umbrella. However, I heard the news mentions some areas in my country has roads flooded and remember hearing a lot of rain in the morning. Because I have some free time, I get to draw, respond and chat a bit before I go to bed.

Late birthday present for kyogre1523  @ Instagram.

It's still night, get some sleep, okay? I'm incredibly frustrated at this drawing because I ruined the bed and Sci's anatomy seems slightly larger than Edge. Overall, this is better than Day 14-15 (wasted pages to be honest) since I had no motivation at that time just to take care of myself. Also, I messed up the title, it meant to be "Feeling Better?" but I accidentally wrote, "Get" before I realised I got the title "Get Some Sleep" already. Anyway, I've been exhausted with sore feet since this week, taking 1-2 hour walks with my dog daily to the vet. I still have insomnia but at least I feel slightly refreshed whenever I wake up.

Well... fuck! I really did it! Even though I trace what's behind this page (the previous day), this drawing took longer because of the background. Yes, this is Jekyll!Sci and Hyde!Edge. I wasn't sure if I should draw Edge in his own clothes since I want this to be the other half of the drawing. After telling my doctor yesterday that I don't know anything, it was later I begin to remember things I should have known but my memory wouldn't register that time. It sounds like I'm lying but usually, it's the truth since I often forget easily...

I didn't do it, I swear! Surprisingly, I drew this earlier and quicker because this is the first half of the drawing. Once midnight strikes, I'll begin drawing Edge next, which makes an effect when you flip the next page, it will show him behind Sci. In seriousness, once I finish the other half, I don't get to draw or do anything tomorrow so I could catch some sleep, hopefully without feeling emotionally tired like today. I've been waking up in pain without knowing why. Yes, I tried to sleep and wake up early but if you ask me why it's not working and such... I don't know.

Seriously, you need to look after yourself! I'm slightly annoyed from the pen's ink along with a few mistakes drawing this. Regardless, the execution did end up how I imagined it to be. Besides Day 6 , I got this idea when I was giving my dog a cold wash from the summer heat. After that, I took a cold shower and thought a lot of things, some funny and some sweet, like this drawing. Ever since I got a loan to my well being, I usually spend them for my dog, especially vets, which I couldn't afford before. Right now, I'm starting to realise how much I truly care and begin to understand this feeling of love... I think..?

Digital original and reference for my recent daily scifell drawings...

Also, let me cut through your words! I often see Sci as the "saviour" type but both of them can help each other out, just that Edge has a different way of showing it. Today, I feel depressed with stubborn headaches until a point I received suicidal thoughts. However, all the despair subsides while I was busy finishing this without any need for medications. Ever since a few years ago, I have this other side of myself (as Edge) often tells me rude yet honest things like this. I came to fully accept that part of me and refuse to change myself without "him", otherwise I probably wouldn't be alive right now.

You love me like a drug, like a drug... I might consider re-making this in digital because it didn't look the same as I envisioned it to be. I should have added a white table to rest Edge's elbows (and remove of the bottom half of him) to bring out his dark fantasies apart from reality. Anyway, I'm glad I asked for music suggestions on Instagram because I regret hearing a certain "yucky" song (just for Music Video Sins). Out of all the songs recommanded, Like A Drug by Charming Liars got me hooked up with its addicting chorus. I even fell lovestruck for this song too, playing it the entire day.

Original sketch and reference for one of my traditional scifell drawing...

How did we get so far from the ground? I'll be posting the original sketch I drew in digital next so you can see the comparison. Because I ran out of my meditation, I took a pink tablet which contains substances to help people sleep as an alternative. Despite I don't have a cold or flu, it helped me sleep last night. Taking it without my doctor's notice makes me feel guilty as if it's a "bad thing" to do. Also, this drawing is inspired from the song, Million Miles An Hour by Nickelback . Like Glitch told me, it's not easy to get rid of the sugar in one day and I'm still feeling "high" from it.

It's okay, you won't go to sleep forever... This is going to be a thing, I might post daily sketches past midnight because I have trouble sleeping and getting up in time. Honestly, I want to skip drawing today because recently, my insomnia is getting worse. However, I was able to get up and start this before midnight as a part of my daily routine. Even though I'm sobered from the sugar (didn't have a frozen coke), my irritation in my head still keeps me awake, no matter how dark my room is without music or my phone.

Ughhh, I don't wanna to do anything... This time, I started drawing this before midnight but still counting this as 8th of January . I'm annoyed with my pens because didn't realise some were dark blue until I noticed the difference. Besides writing my AU, I don't feel like doing anything else today. I feel wasted despite I never drank alcohol in my life. It's mostly because of the sugar and it's my 8th frozen coke this year. As for Sci and Edge, I guess it's a continuation from yesterday except sugar is replaced with mustard and other drinks *cough* spiked eggnogs.

Sugar.  What a wonderful man-made substance humanity ever created..! A few minutes late again because I didn't expect to make this past midnight like yesterday since I begin drawing around 11 PM. Recently, I noticed the addiction is crawling into me, making me feel "insane" and irritated often. Because my advisor mentions that I should cut the sugar, I've decided to draw something related to it. I've always wondered why adults always rely on drinking coffee every morning so I thought about drinking frozen coke instead.

Sci How's Underfell? Edge *remembers everybody dying quickly* Hell.

I may use this scenario into a oneshot... I'm a few minutes late posting this for the 6th of January because I was struggling to give a title and blockquote without using the word "Umbrella" since I'm saving it for a future sketch. After getting a hair cut and walked my dog, the sky went cloudy to rainy all the sudden. I didn't have an umbrella at that time but thinking about it reminds me of an unused idea, having Sci giving Edge his umbrella symbolising protection in life. It may be a cliche troop seeing this happen in real life but I would find people really nice and caring if they hand over their umbrella to somebody they encountered in the rain.

Nobody pays attention nowadays... Although I'm a few minutes late, this still counts as a daily drawing for the 5th of January . Ever since technology continues to expand, everybody goes online and couldn't care less what's around them. This also happens to me, I could't go out alone without music in my ears. When I was walking my dog today, my sister noticed me on her way home by bus and I didn't realise at all. Even without my phone, I'm often unaware other people and my surroundings as I lack focus (even when pointed at).

This is not a test, this is not a test.

Not another thing you own! Here's another sketch inspired from "This Life Is Mine" vocal cover by Caleb Hyles. Intentionally, this idea was for a future PSA comic about Edge wearing a (pet) collar. When I was new, I thought it was canon he wears one but I'm so glad it isn't and have a pet peeve of seeing Edge with a collar (and two red eyes). As for Sci, he rejects the "hope" or project. You can also say he's also ripping the papers of researches in alternate universes and timelines too. Also, I'm disappointed I messed up Edge's jacket.

This is not a test, this is not a test. "Full Circle" by Five Finger Death Punch is the newest song they officially release today and I've been falling in love with it. Since my days aren't special or memorable, I decided to draw Sci and Edge inspired by the song to remember instead. I'll be remaking this into digital because I originally start the sketch on my computer since I'm terrible at drawing without whiteout or an eraser to undo my mistakes. Originally, Sci wasn't going to raise his arms up (into a complete circle above) or have any tally marks prison-like background and the bridges behind him.

They're all the same. I've been listening to "This Life Is Mine" vocal cover by Caleb Hyles non-stop because how much the song would be awesome if I make a music animation with my AU, showing each other's past as a duet with heart (Edge) and mind (Sci) finally becoming one. When the song mention "mirror", I used it as the "barrier" between both worlds. Sci wears a white coat and Edge wears dark clothing to contrast each other like yin and yang. Regardless of appearance, whatever they're black or white from the inside or outside, both have different views of what's right or wrong but they aim for the same thing. I'll be drawing more base from the cover song in the future because there's a lot to show.

Ahh, shit. Here we go again! I brought a mini 365 Days of Doodling book for myself as a new year resolution to try drawing once a day. What's funny is that later, I found out 2020 is a leap year... Anyway, I'm still keeping it and have the last blank page as the final day. I know I'm a perfectionist so this will help me draw without being too strict on myself. Regardless of the bushfires happening in Australia, my country still send fireworks during the new year. As for this doodle, instead of throwing an epic cool explosion, Sci allows Edge to set their Christmas tree on fire every year.

It's the first year and I'm already starting to draw scifell again.