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This comic is brought to you by the letter S..!

Merry Christmas 2020 and it's no secret that I really like scifell!

For Cuddles (cuddlypfudor) and Ky (kyogre1523) @ Instagram.

I didn't like the jacket after all and re-design his top clothing for my AU. There are too many characters wearing a jacket so I decided to remove Geno's hoodie as if he's only wearing a white shirt underneath it. Then, I changed the shirt into a proper uniform I've seemed pharmacist wears in person. Regardless of the changes, I still keep his damaged right eye hidden behind the eyepatch, weak skinnier bones and Geno's iconic long red scarf. The only design I'm not happy is the pocket logo because I'm using it as a temporary design to show what it would look like overall as the Ultimate Pharmacist. Lastly, I thought about adding bandages around his wrists but I personally rejected that idea afterwards.

Translation: TURN ME BACK TO NORMAL!! This is for 20th March when I saw my dad watching The Cat Returns on Netflix for a moment. Because of the movie, I wonder what it would be like being free as a cat. For this experimentation, I tried to draw Sci and Edge as anthropomorphic cats, although Edge is closer to become an actual cat than Sci. Also, it's kinda strange seeing them as furries despite I used to draw some a long time ago. P.S. I don't intend to draw them as furries in the future since I prefer their original form as skeletons.

6,530,124,710 years I tried saving him... This is for 19th March when I was watching SHSL Blaze's blind LP of Life Is Strange. I enjoy his commentary and agree with his perspective of playing the game. Besides that, I often give Sci the ability to control time if he uses his magical powers, which is why he doesn't use magic. I also love concepts involving time travel despite the consequences. Regardless, I actually drew this on 25th October before struggling to come up with a title. I was going to post this a few days ago but my sense of time is warped from 1 day to 2-3 days.

Just a sketch of Sci-Ko as if he's taking appointments. I haven't been drawing anything in digital for a long time and being on hiatus for too long makes you forget how you used to draw and struggle a lot because you haven't practised drawing. Every time I want to draw something, I always need to have better anatomy, background, and some kind of hidden meaning behind my work. I put pressure on myself to meet my own expectations to overburden myself to give up. Originally, I was trying to draw for an art challenge of my two favourite skeletons but all I want to draw is Sci alone just because he's one of my favourite characters.

This 6-hour sketch was supposed to be an anatomy guide for Glitch...

TRIGGER WARNING: Personal real life experiences I went through, mention of sexual abuse , suicide  and death . You are warned before reading any further .

Background experimentation + can't find a good signature place.

Re-Design Dance's outfit to be more fitting in my UnderDespair AU.

I'm aware this sketch looks similar to a different drawing I did before...

Birthday Present for Envandraren  @ Instagram.

Plot twist: It actually taste good, just the visual and smell is terrible...

Hopefully I'm not scaring people for experimenting this style!

It's been so long drawing humans, here's Ace after 6 years!

I shouldn't be drawing this but I blank out my mind and this came up...

"You've... grown up a lot." This is for 18th March when a friend from high school contacted me ever since we last saw and talked to each other. Honestly, nearly everyone since my childhood all went to their separate ways in life. Those who knew me long ago would surely recognise how much we changed, despite I'm still wandering lost while looking for my own meaning in life. For this drawing, I'm more of Edge while many people are Sci who already decided what to do in their future. Also, feel free to make headcanons and ideas between the two.

ERROR. HAPPINESS NOT FOUND. This is for 17th March when I had a mental meltdown because of a "certain program" made me completely afraid to draw from using my laptop for most of my months being in hiatus. There wasn't any happy memory that day. My mind couldn't handle the stress, being an overloaded computer forcing to shut down. All of that reminds me of Error taking advantage of other's lives like Sci and Edge with his puppetry strings. Don't worry, all of those feelings are temporary, despite that fear didn't go and prevent me from enjoying the things I like doing...

It wasn't supposed to be scifell, just Sci-Ko and Edge in one canvas.

One mistake and he already gave up... This is for 16th March when I was distracted from writing and ended up trying to solve a sudoku. Ever since I brought sudoku books, I've been completing some as a warm-up before drawing or doing certain things. There were times I feel proactive for completing it (like Sci) but other times, I gave up and use the answer sheets to correct my mistakes or fall asleep from lack of brainpower (like Edge). P.S. Feel free to solve this sudoku if you want! Just ignore the crossed out part of Edge's face in one box and replace the answer to a cherry.

"That nerd got some skills..!" This is for 15th March when I have a voice chat with Glitch while watching him gaming on my device. Lately, I don't watch live gameplays but Glitch is an exception because it's just the two of us having fun and enjoying each other's company. Whenever we have a chance to call each other due to long-distance, Glitch is usually available during the day while it's in the evening for my timezone. I can see Edge as one of those stereotyped gamers but for this drawing... Since Glitch is the one who's gaming, I drew Sci instead as a gamer nerd.

Will consider changing Sci's eyes to Edge's one red eye instead...

Edge F*CK YOU!!!! DIE! DIE! DIE!!! BOO-YA! I WIN!! Dance Dude, it's just a game! I'll beat you in the next round then! Edge HELL YEAH! YOU'RE GOING DOWN!!! Sci *appears just to say hello then leaves* Edge ... *holds all his rage inside despite losing* Dance Well SOMEBODY turned on your filter- Edge SHUT UP!

Sci So, you're an Aries? Edge Hell yeah! I can headbutt anybody out my way! Dance But he's actually soft and cuddly! Edge S-SHUT UP DANCE!!

Is that- "IT'S NOT WHAT YOU THINK!!" This is for 14th March when I couldn't sleep and I end up binge-watching the entire night until around 10 AM. There wasn't anything special that day other than watching PPG, which is actually a good cartoon from the earlier seasons. I used to watch it from a DVD (don't have it anymore) and remembered the show to be considered "too girly" but boy, it's actually brutal, violent and awesome! Also, I'm skipping the newest versions because I prefer the earlier classic seasons (and PPGZ too, it's a well-done anime adaptation in my opinion).

Fusion Concept of Nightmare and Dream . I had an idea of wanting to see what a fusion would look like between the Dreamtale twins, Nightmare and Dream. Earlier, I drew a finger sketch on my phone using colours of the sunset — Dream is yellow and Nightmare is purple — with not every darkness being "evil". Originally, the previous guardian from their AU was one spirit before they split into two. Nightmare can only feel negative emotions and Dream the opposite. Because of that,  along with a spoiler event from P5 that inspired me to make this fusion concept , I wonder what the twins look like if they're fused together as one entity without conflict with each other. Unfortunately, the character looks more like Dream than Nightmare, but I could imagine aspects of Nightmare's personality whenever they express negative feelings to make it up with this concept design.

Bonus details on their design. This is for 13th March when I was drawing emblems for each skeleton because each character from DR has at least one (usually relating to their former school but for my crossover, it's AU or creator). For Sci's emblem, he gets my (old) signature on his lab coat's collar and will begin drawing his emblem from now on, even if it's without the outline over it. For Edge's emblem, I designed it long ago and place it on his shoe's logo. Originally, it was a reference to a certain music band in a plus-cross but crossbones is better in my opinion while keep adding the "3126" numbers relating with them.

The main protagonist and deuteragonist. This is for 12th March when I was drawing most of the cast's official illustrations, trying to draw in my old digital painting style, because it's the closest style to Danganronpa's promotional arts. I'm proud of myself that I improved my anatomy throughout the three years of drawing them. If I have drawn any UnderDespair content back then, my old art style wouldn't hold up and look off. I've seen many people strictly use DR style and sprites for their crossovers but honestly... All the skeletons would look terrible in DR proportions and I prefer drawing my AU in my art style instead.

Are you really sure this is... Gaster? This is for 11th March when I found my flipnote animation "Killer PV", which I never continued it ever since I stop using my Nintendo DSi XL. I was planning to draw them resembling Spike and Yasu from my original series' universe or relating the deadly sins, wrath and envy but... I didn't want my original content to merge with their universe, yet . Anyway, the chibi version of Gaster is their (missing) mascot while Nightmare-Kat is my original mascot from my own killing game inspired by Danganronpa and Zero Escape series before discovering scifell exists and creating UnderDespair instead.

Profile biographical information. This is for 10th March when I was making game screenshots displaying everyone's report cards. I've already made and fill in everybody's profile, which you're free to check their ultimate titles, birthday, Japanese pronouns and preferences. However, I didn't add "former AUs" and "blood types" in this drawing nor did I drew this perfectly (Edge's paper is off proportion). In UnderDespair, it's mandatory assignment to fill in everyone's profiles in their e-handbook and writes each page after receiving a piece of hope fragment (max 5 to full completion with one other).

Can you guess... Who's that skeleton? This is for 9th March when I discovered a video explaining character design and colour palettes. Since I always use black and white in my daily scifell drawings (excluding one page), I just draw them in a silhouette side by side. If you guess Sci at the left, you're right and it's obvious too! Having a recognisable outline figure is one part of good character design. Same goes with Edge because he's the only skeleton with socks, shoes and furs on his jacket like these. P.S. I accidentally traced this on the wrong page and can't erase my mistakes like in digital...

Bonus reference of Ink in  my outfit design  (for UnderDespair). 

An UnderDespair scene in Chapter 1. This is for 8th March when I was writing the second day of the first chapter when Sci, Edge and Dance are having a sleepover together. For those who know, I really adore the three skeletons just being dudes and happy to influence other people to grow a liking for Dance (who's underrated), especially his friendship with Edge. This drawing is where the three agrees to sleep on the floor in Dance's dorm. The reason Dance wants Sci in the middle because Edge tends to move a lot in his sleep, bringing him flustered and teased before they fall asleep.

I'm not a cat... but a very FAT cat..! This is for 7th March when I ate too many ice creams and used that idea into a weight problem. Back then, my maths teacher told me about skinny people in the past will gain a lot in the future. It's been a few years to finally come true. Despite I'm still underweight, I tend to eat anything because of depression and stress. Edge would be the type to poke fun of other's weight just like my sister today but too bad Edge's the one in trouble. I've never been on a diet but my logical side as Sci tells me not to eat too much and tries not to make it as a big deal...

"Where did I dropped my money?!" This is for 6th March when I was walking my dog and I found fifteen Australian dollars (a ten and five) lying on the ground. Of course, I picked it up except... it didn't happen like in this drawing. There was a time I commissioned an artist but they unluckily lost the money I gave. I feel bad for people, even myself who accidentally lost fifty dollars to buy my family pizzas and I went back home, lying to my parents and use my savings. It's a consequence I paid but when I found the money with no one around the street, there's a guilty conscious telling me to keep the lost money.

Why am I tearing from these glasses..? This is for 5th March and I can't remember anything in particular on that day. The only thing written in my note is a vague word: depress . There was nothing my head telling me what happened to the point I can't feel anything today. Luckily, I check on my Instagram's archived stories to discover what I forgot. That day... I was indecisive to do either the comic animation or continue working on my writing or making art. I wasn't okay with a huge depression, which is why I irregularly stop drawing "daily scifell" until picking it back up now.

Three hours wasted on this doodle (two from accidently holding undo)...

"Screw Blue, marry Sci and kill Classic..!" This is for 4th March when I thought about a concept relating to the game "Kiss, Marry, Kill". I had an idea of a killing game forcing the players to literally do the following methods with three unlucky candidates. One must torture someone for Fuck , another to save as Marry and Kill the last person. And if the player refuses to cooperate, all four participants will die instead. If you ask me... I would always pick Sci for "marry" (even between him and Edge, who's my second choice) because honestly and realistically, I would personally prefer somebody reliable and smart.

"It's nice talking to you..!" This is for 3rd March when I brought a lychee flavoured slushie from the convenience store with the same employer since Day 35 . As a regular customer, I only buy coke slushies but on special occasions like today, which the cashier noticed me getting a new flavour and starts a small conversation about it. In the end, we only talked a bit, saying I would recommend trying that flavour before parting ways. P.S. Sadly, lychee isn't available anymore because every 2 flavours except for coke always changes from time to time...

"You know what you have to do, right..?" This is for 2nd March when I binge-watched an LP of a game called "Your Turn To Die". Sadly, I haven't emerged with every character yet since I'm used to Danganronpa (which I cried at least once from each main game). It's not my favourite but I kinda like it, just hoping there's a moment from the game that can make me cry. Also, am I the only one who likes a "bad ending" where the protagonist votes for the sacrifice so the two can be the only survivors? Regardless, that idea would be awesome if Sci is the sage and able to deceive everyone just to save Edge together.

"S-s-save me, I don't know what to do..!" This is for 1st March when I was planning and making a comic about favourite animals. Personally, it's a coincidence around me that I love penguins (even my brother too) before I knew certain people like NicoB who calls his fans "picky penguins". When I was little, I was disappointed I couldn't go to an aquarium to see the penguins so I have a soft spot for a future scifell idea having Edge taking Sci to an aquarium date one day. As for tigers, they're fine but I can definitely see Edge as one because I have a few references and symbolism relating and associating him with them.

I couldn't even cry today, I think my heart is finally broken... This is for the special 29th February when I didn't feel like doing anything today, just like the song "A Little Bit off" by Five Finger Death Punch. Continuing listening to their newest "F8" album, this track got me off guarded but in a good way. I really like this song except for the part mentioning love, which I decided to use in this drawing. I had an idea of having Sci at the background but due to limited space, I regret not drawing Sci's back as he's disappearing like he passed away, leaving Edge feeling a little bit off without him in his life...

I can see through my reflection, what I've become and what I've been... This is for 28th February when Five Finger Death Punch released their "F8" album. I like a few of their tracks and "Darkness Settles In" is one of them. For this drawing, it's like Jekyll!Sci and Hyde!Edge too, placing their hands against the mirror reflecting two sides of themselves where neither one belongs to be sent to heaven nor hell in the afterlife. Other than that, I got my sister to pose as Sci against a mirror so I could use the photo as a reference. Without her, I struggled to find an image reference online and it was difficult to do it by myself.